No excuses.

I have so many different things going on in my life right now with a range of all emotions possible. Some of them mesh and plenty of them contradict each other. I am overwhelmed with so many different feelings and thoughts I can't clear the noise in my head.

I have decided to go back to a Crossfit class today. Crossfit East Oahu opened up and is only a 15 min bike ride from my house, which is GREAT! (Considering I have no other means of transportation)

I haven't been to Crossfit in MONTHS, much less worked out basically at all. I am terrified at how hard I know it's going to be.

Bryant Powers from Crossfit Oahu (www.crossfitoahu.com) said something in one of his classes that I try to remember. "We have hundreds of days to workout, don't try to do it all today."

I did Crossfit back in Los Angeles when I lived there. I haven't really been able to afford it or find the time to do it since I moved to Hawaii in 2009. I think about it EVERY day and how much I miss it. It's hard to explain Crossfit and it's overwhelming addiction unless you're involved. But I'm addicted. I "drank the kool-aid" and I'm hooked.

I feel like, in a lot of things in my life not just Crossfit, that I have made a lot of excuses for my lack of strength, or speed of improvement, or overall weakness. This time around... NO EXCUSES.

Maybe I will have my usual knee or back pain. Maybe I didn't eat or drink enough. Maybe I ate too much. Maybe I'm tired. Maybe I'm lazy. Maybe I have one of the millions of other excuses that we all come up with or feel, espcially in the midst of a Crossfit WOD.. But I've decided here and now that I am just going to *DO MY BEST*

That's it.

My Best.

For today.

That will be different every day because our bodies are always changing, adjusting, healing, etc. But whatever that means today I will do. If it means even modifying the beginner WOD, or only doing half of it, that's fine.

I have hundreds of days to workout.... Why overdo it because I am afraid. (And btw, I am afraid that no only will I feel like dying.. But I won't be even close to where I was when I left off Crosffiting over a year and a half ago. I have to start over. That's scary and hard and sad. But I am going to do it, and do it better than I did before.) Just do my best for today. And do the same thing tomorrow. And every day after that.

So.. NO EXCUSES. I will do the best I can.. today.